9/28/21
In this dream Shal had died suddenly while driving a white pickup truck. I couldn’t process the reality of it but knew I had to tell the kids. While they dealt with their shock, I had taken Shal’s “walking stick” and had gone for a walk in a pasture with little white flowers. While I was walking, I was thinking about him. Just then across the field I saw him walking toward me. He was dressed in his blue, red, yellow and white soccer shirt, blue jeans and his tan Italian shoes.
I ran to him barely believing my eyes and hugged him so tight. I buried my face in his chest while he hugged me. I didn’t want to let go. I asked him where he’s been and why he left. All he could tell me was that he couldn’t stay long. My heart started to break all over again and thought to myself that it wasn’t fair. Why would GOD allow me to see him again only to take him away from me again and leave me all alone?
We talked and walked for a little while, holding hands while He was telling me things that I would have to do and that we would see each other again soon. He knew I would keep my vow of staying faithful to him and never remarry…He had been given permission to come back and reassure and strengthen me for the call on my life without him in it.
We hadn’t left the field, and it came time for him to go. As we said our “goodbyes”, he started back in the direction that I first saw him on the edge of the pasture and forest. I watched as he faded into the fog that came out of nowhere like something out of a movie and I wanted to stop breathing so that I could follow him. I promised I would follow him wherever he led us. But the LORD restrained me…I still had a job to do. I was in so much pain, I woke up. Shal was still here sleeping next to me. I turned over to hold him and cry.
The last thing I heard ring in my head were these words…”seek HIM while HE may still be found”.
Interpretation…I often refer to Shal as “Beloved” because of how GOD sees him. The name came from my stand for the restoration of our marriage many years ago. I asked the LORD to show me him thru HIS eyes so that I could walk in unconditional love and forgiveness just as he has with me. Our time on this earth is short and we need to invest as much time into our marriage to GOD and HIS WORD as we do our own relationships while we still can. There may come a day when HE won’t be so easily accessible and we will have to live on what we built to have strength to stand.
As I read this, I felt the impact of the depth of anguish this dream depicted as a result of the separation. It was also VERY clear the message that was conveyed by it. Very well done!